The Ultimate Mommy Question...

Yup, its the question every Mommy probably asks at one point in her career as a Mommy...
"can I have it all?"

Well, I definitely don't have the answer. I myself am asking that very same question. Well, it seems I ask that about every 2 weeks or so right now.
As I think to myself, "What on earth do I think I'm doing?"

What I'm speaking of is not only being a Mommy, a wife, a homemaker, but also a part time student. And although I really think I have been given a great opportunity (a bursary, paying for all of my courses), I am wondering, is it really worth it, if I can't excel at it?

I really feel like when I'm being a 'good student' then my Mommying starts to lack. Quiet times turn into , "Shh, Mommy needs to study, so watch your movie" times.

And when I'm being super Mommy, and my house is clean, my children are happy, dinner is cooking, some fresh muffins are on the stove, my hair is perfectly coiffed, I'mwearing my June Cleaver outfit, and Walt will be home any minute...well, that is generally a sign that I haven't been all that studious lately.

So can a girl win?

Is it better to do something "halfway" (in a sense) or not do it at all? Because the inner perfectionist in me, screams, "NO!" But then the side of my head that is somewhat in touch with reality says, "It might just be better to do something halfway, than to not do it at all."

Now I'm not speaking about parenting. Or being a wife. Those things I think are undisputable. Those are the things that I was first called to, and ultimately, on my death bed, will be what truly mattered. But its this darn school thing. Because if we get in touch with my Native roots, and look at it like a totem pole, well, lets just say, school is definitely low on the pole.

Take this afternoon for example. I have my first Criminology midterm tomorrow night. Although I'm feeling fairly prepared, I would like to take a good portion of the day to study some more. So first we have to eat lunch. Then I have to get the kids cleaned up and Gabe down for nap. Get Abbi set up for some quiet time (usually a movie). Then I have to clean up the kitchen. Then I technically should put some laundry on, and fold some laundry. And well, the floors need to be washed, and the bathrooms should be cleaned. And well, phew, I'm exhausted just thinking about it! So where on earth am I supposed to find the time?

*As a side note, I just need to answer the question of, "where the heck is your husband?" Rob just recently landed his first side job. So this is the beginning of week #2, and although the job is coming to completion, that has been taking up the majority of his spare time, which has left me at home with the kids most nights this week. I know I've said this before, but seriously, a standing ovation to you single Moms out there!!!

Anyway, I guess as I prepare for this exam, and although I have done exceptionally well at my studies thus far (an A in my Sociology course, and currently I'm sitting at a B in my History course), part of me just feels like if I want to keep up that level of success, well, something else is going to have to suffer.

So do you do it, even though you may not be able to do it as well as you would like? I'd love to hear some feedback from my faithful few...